My desire for the priesthood started around second grade. As I got older and tried to flee it, it only persisted. I tried to run from God but He always ran faster. The idea of the priesthood became more attractive late in high school when, visiting adoration in my high school chapel, I began feeling peace for the first time in many years. I experienced God’s care and it slowly dawned on me that He was so much better than anything I could find on my own.
Since then — working with high school students and people with disabilities, encountering the poor, praying the Psalms and above all in adoration and at Mass — a desire has been growing in me to serve God and His people. I want my life to help others know what I am slowly and joyfully learning: that God is a merciful, loving Reality greater than anything I could ask or imagine.
I’m going to seminary not because I’m certain God is calling me to be a priest. I’m not certain. With any vocation full certainty only comes at marriage, ordination or profession of vows, when God confirms your inclinations in a permanent way. I’m going to seminary not because I’m special or because a Jesus-y life happens to be a good fit for me personally. I’m going because He is the Creator of the universe, including me. I don’t know His will, but because of who He is I want to find out.
Quote: “I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship. Do not conform yourself to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.” – Romans 12:1-2